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week end was horrible?...i slept at 1am for two nights in a row and fell asleep in BOTH english classes and math class.....ouch....now i'm really quite burned out. after sch got a sudden call from darrel saying meet him at space frame....met him and mich and talked a bit..they were in ACSI cos they had to watch ACJC vs HC water polo...so decided to call me and talk...haha...so nice...honestly if they hadn't called, i'll probably nod off again..

k, talking about nodding off, i finished one drawing and the sketch for the other...but first before that, the return of the DIGITALLY REMASTERED HOTARU SKETCH!



if you look REALLY close, u can see white lines across the face, that was the black lines i erased, i found it really hard to fill back in the lines, so i try to erase as little of surrounding as possible


this one is quite obvious, the one i was working on since i got stuck in sch on sats for fencing, i never intended to complete the left side of the building, so i left it as it is....i finished some colour version and one super dark night version. i intend to use this drawing in my stories, as the center of the fictitious school.



this one i call the "king of comedy"...the original drawing was from a poster in sch (the last of its kind) i intend to make it part of one of the story as a mask...(i didn't tell you that in OP: angelus, the characters attend a sch prom?hinthint)


this is all i have completed up to now...i should go and sleep now before i fall sick like my teacher...hahaha...ouch..

also, check it out, vinnie has update a new flash video about characters in CCC City, check out newgrounds for it

caught myself back from square one

i just realised from my last post that i nearly went back to my self-pitying self-loathing old self again....so sorry..i'm changing, hating who i was, becoming a better person (hopefully)

the only drawing i finished up to now...new one, Hotaru from Samurai Deeper Kyo..minus accessories

...well, if you ignore the lines that run across and the popular bookstore logo at the bottom...i would say this has to be one of the best drawings i have ever churned out, even if i had to look at the original....one step closer to independence and free sketching....and then my OPERATION SERIES

i decided to call the story series OPERATION (or OP for short)....i wanted to base it on the students from the same school(i intent to end the whole series with each of them joining in some mega big battle)(pls note that the stories are not in the correct chronological order...), and each story was suppose to focus on one or more students and a main theme (none of them focused completely on romance).

OP: Angelus
is the story about the 6 teens who "merged" with angels, throwing them into the war btw angels and demon...with humans in the middle....this one has three pairs of main characters...each have their own problems and how they help each other to grow and overcome odds. (the title was meant to be mean Angel-are-us)

OP: Demiarm
is focused on one boy. contrary to the earlier story, his strength draws from the other end of the spiritual spectrum...his arm is completely ash black and ridiculously powerful, it is the focus of his hate and the reason for his alienation by his classmates. theme here was to relate on how pple get alienated becos of these kind of issues (differences etc)...

they sound a little silly, but i'm working on the details for each story to make it slightly more realistic and more interesting....think of it as a blend of bleach,d.gray-man,kyo and various other anime/manga....WITHOUT THE FAN SERVICE HAHAHAHAHA....(i feel evil towards the male gender)

Note: all the OP occurs around students from one school...the school is mentioned in a good light, sometimes there will be instances of humour at the acronyms used....so for that sake, those who know me and my school, if you can find something that is funny,memorable yet nice and uses the acronyms of my sch, pls tell me, i can't thing of one....(maybe thats why the school initials are so, so that students couldn't find anything to remake from it)

k, anyone with ideals to help me pls message me....i don't really know how many pple read this blog...and since i lost my tagboard,i'm not sure my classmates have not found this place yet....so i'm playing it by ear....

this ideas came to me mostly while i'm sleeping, imagine a empty concrete ground and two guys fighting anime style (after-effects of watching bleach at night and reading too much kyo). i wanted to do more, but right now my drawing skill is kind of limited,and time is too...

k, quickupdate of my time schedule for the hols:
mon,wed,fri,sat is fencing training in the morning
thur night is class outing (getting prep for dunking)

means i barely have any time to do work

k gtg sleep, enjoying minutes of singlehood is too good for me...

am i insecure...or are my friends?....i think its the former...looking around me are pple confident of what they're doing, i'm dragging my feet to find my abilities...why?

what a life

i just took a quiz my friend posted on his blog, they list out aspects of your life and a score...mind,body,love,etc...
the only really good quality is body at 6.3...the worse is love at 0.0!!!! you can tell that i was laughing my head off when i got the score....really ridiculous
but seriously i probably never thought about love and relationship seriously...so i couldn't care too much...haha

my story...IS TOP SECRET..you wanna hear it, two conditions: one msn message me, two don't laugh at it...
it seems a bit childish, but i'm tying to make it as realistic as possible and as thought engaging as it should be a action comic/manga type of novel. if categorised alongside manga comics...it would be a shounian (young boy=teens guys) with NO FAN SERVICE!...BWAHAHAHAHA....i dislike fan-service-focused manga...dilutes the action and any plots twist...
and of course, apart from writing out the plot and stuff, i have to DRAW IT...it wouldn't be as fun if it was just a novel cos I WRITE VERY BAD COMPOSITIONS...ESPECIALLY NARRATIVES

meanwhile, i feel semi-depressed about...NOTHING....just mixed feelings over NOTHING....i can't believe how dumb this sounds but i'm really can't find anything that is causing me to stone randomly recently...

i haven't really explained how i feel about my behaviour...so i'll probably explain how i think it works:

i have three main personalities that merge to form ME:(for the sake of easy reference, i've named them)

Titus: the slightly arrogant, rash, violent one
Dan: the guy with the mentality of a 6 year old
Leon: the quiet though-provoking,rational,reasonable gentleman

Each of them forms me...undeniably they each take turns to be the dominant one with Titus and Dan appearing least...

even so, the most important factor in this is still Dan..the central behaviour that controls the minute balance between sane and on the verge of no reason...it is the main object that holds the other two together..perhaps this is the reason why i chose to use TitusLeon as my online nick (along with the reasons i have been giving so far), it embodies the two extremes that make up me...yet is not me...

i have no real reason why i think like that...i just like to talk to myself a bit too much...haha..growing up with lego for too long might be the cause...but i really don't care

i think i lie to myself too much...that i'm not mugger..that i have a real life...that i don't care what pple say about me...but the more i think about it, maybe this is the reason why i can still be who i am...the lies keep me occupied so i can never actually worry about the truth of me...so in the end....i can't tell whether i choose to lie to myself...or if i even lied to myself?in fact...i kind of like where i am now....enjoying everyday that God has let me live....

do i honestly belong among the sane? after writing so much, can i still say that i'm qualified to claim that i'm not eccentric? after so many years, i really can't be bothered....i'm not mad after all, just a little close to the edge.

ending of term

so its the end of term 1...SO SOON...i feel like i barely started (same could be said for all my drawings since almost NO PROGRESS SINCE JANUARY)

tests are almost all gone...math is the last one...then got chinese oral still haven't done yet..

chem prac are much harder than last year
(titus: "duh, you just got promoted a year...OF COURSE IT GETS HARDER")
(leon: "honestly...-_-' ")

when i finish the three drawings i'm doing, i'll post it up...they look quite ok (one of them excerpt from kyo, two from dmc4 trailer stills)(the one from kyo looks great...but its half done..HALF A FACE ONLY)(titus:"OM...")(leon:"hahahaha.....-_-' ")(meanwhile, the other two a bit harder...even though from the same pic, its not that easy to draw faces side..)

i just started rethinking my story out for these pics...so i'm overloading my brain a bit more than i should....

my best subject now should undoubtedly be chem..since its the only subject i'm not really having a hard time (as compared to lit...)

then today ate dinner really early (4.30pm eat dinner...woohoooo..LJS..love their fries, but i also like salt, and pepper, and herbs...and many spices)(Leon: -_-')

k, gtg do work again, nite