caught myself back from square one

i just realised from my last post that i nearly went back to my self-pitying self-loathing old self again....so sorry..i'm changing, hating who i was, becoming a better person (hopefully)

the only drawing i finished up to now...new one, Hotaru from Samurai Deeper Kyo..minus accessories

...well, if you ignore the lines that run across and the popular bookstore logo at the bottom...i would say this has to be one of the best drawings i have ever churned out, even if i had to look at the original....one step closer to independence and free sketching....and then my OPERATION SERIES

i decided to call the story series OPERATION (or OP for short)....i wanted to base it on the students from the same school(i intent to end the whole series with each of them joining in some mega big battle)(pls note that the stories are not in the correct chronological order...), and each story was suppose to focus on one or more students and a main theme (none of them focused completely on romance).

OP: Angelus
is the story about the 6 teens who "merged" with angels, throwing them into the war btw angels and demon...with humans in the middle....this one has three pairs of main characters...each have their own problems and how they help each other to grow and overcome odds. (the title was meant to be mean Angel-are-us)

OP: Demiarm
is focused on one boy. contrary to the earlier story, his strength draws from the other end of the spiritual spectrum...his arm is completely ash black and ridiculously powerful, it is the focus of his hate and the reason for his alienation by his classmates. theme here was to relate on how pple get alienated becos of these kind of issues (differences etc)...

they sound a little silly, but i'm working on the details for each story to make it slightly more realistic and more interesting....think of it as a blend of bleach,d.gray-man,kyo and various other anime/manga....WITHOUT THE FAN SERVICE HAHAHAHAHA....(i feel evil towards the male gender)

Note: all the OP occurs around students from one school...the school is mentioned in a good light, sometimes there will be instances of humour at the acronyms used....so for that sake, those who know me and my school, if you can find something that is funny,memorable yet nice and uses the acronyms of my sch, pls tell me, i can't thing of one....(maybe thats why the school initials are so, so that students couldn't find anything to remake from it)

k, anyone with ideals to help me pls message me....i don't really know how many pple read this blog...and since i lost my tagboard,i'm not sure my classmates have not found this place yet....so i'm playing it by ear....

this ideas came to me mostly while i'm sleeping, imagine a empty concrete ground and two guys fighting anime style (after-effects of watching bleach at night and reading too much kyo). i wanted to do more, but right now my drawing skill is kind of limited,and time is too...

k, quickupdate of my time schedule for the hols:
mon,wed,fri,sat is fencing training in the morning
thur night is class outing (getting prep for dunking)

means i barely have any time to do work

k gtg sleep, enjoying minutes of singlehood is too good for me...

am i insecure...or are my friends?....i think its the former...looking around me are pple confident of what they're doing, i'm dragging my feet to find my abilities...why?