haha, i still have time to draw....well, not really much time.

first up, hotaru from Samurai deeper kyo, looking distant (actually scene where he looks like this is during his past, so i modified and used his modern day hair style =minus ponytails)


next up was some random thing with the coffee beanies, some bitching involved in it
THIS IS BY FAIR MY MOST FAVOURITE (for obvious reason). First time drawing spiked hair and it looks fairly good. Ironically, my subsequent attempts looked worse. er, initial plan was that this guy is "immortal" or more accurately already dead, hence why a knife to the head would be ok (he's suppose to be smiling, too lazy to draw smile since i never drew eyes).


random cute guy i drew, i like him a lot.



and so that is the end for a while.
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Two important things:

1 FINALY FANTASY XIII HAS A ENGLISH TRAILER....AND THEY TALK FOR A DECENT 7 MINS

2. I GOT STOMACH PAINS FROM EATING TOOO MUCH

ok, signing off now.
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so i'm finally on a break. and in a few days time i'm going back in again.

and for some reason i'm addicted to the song "another way to die" by Alicia Keys and Jack White.

my msn messenger on my desktop does not work in tandem with my firefox (also doesn't help that i open many tabs on it too)

my mind is surprisingly clear despite all the events that happen over the last 3 months. lots of things happened in other pple's lives, while mine has remained stagnant.

finished two books by Malcolm Gladwell, highly recommend to read his books.

here's hoping my desktop doesn't die...none of the other coms in my house has the scanning software for the scanner.
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so now i have to write a rushed apologies for the year.

i'm sorry that i've not been a good friend to all my friends
i'm sorry for avoiding problems that i should have addressed
i'm sorry for bringing problems to others when i shouldn't have (of which i am sure of at least one incident that was caused by me and still strains me and others)

and as the new year begins, i ask for your forgiveness which i still do not deserve.

This post goes out to all and one of my friends, of which they will know if they read. (unless my cryptic style is really so bad that no one understands)
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we interrupt daniel's serious apology post to update you on the latest on the crisis monitor: of which we have no idea why he's panicking so much, nor are we really sure of the crisis (or if the crisis is a crisis).

in case no one gets why i can panic, i don't like being outnumbered by members of the other gender. in addition to my limited social skills and low self-esteem, i place limits on what i should do as a gentleman(of which i still have limited knowledge). so essential, a girl can practically bully me, while a part of me still debates what is the morally correct retaliation. either that or the fact that i never had a good relationship with girls since primary school.

so while this might be some other guy's dream position, it will take at least two days for me to warm up to my current situation.

i have a feeling my mum has high hopes of me getting a girlfriend before my brother...which in a way my brother seconds (of course my dad will remain nonchalant until i actually get one). so i guess i will have to continue to disappoint them in this aspect for sometime.

a Belated Merry Christmas to readers. spent it with family and friends.

having my emotional low and isolation period again, trying to occupy time by NOT think of how lonely i am. not working very well, but still its better than nothing.
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and its the end of the year again...

to prevent complete brain meltdown upon introspection of how really lonely i am now and for the past 18 years...i will occupy you with a new guest to this blog.

his current name is "coffee-beanie" -a merge of coffee bean and beanie baby-. currently, he has no real name. so if you like, you can name him. he is the product of much needed criticism on student life. he also has a friend...who has square spectacles in place of those two irregular eyes. if you have anything to comment about student lifestyle that is wrong, do drop a note...while i try to figure out if i can keep at this idea for a strip comic...and whether they have hands.

and as another "surprise", i've done a "picture" of myself.

enjoy your year-end.
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technically, school is out. but i have to study like a mad hamster (but not like THE hamster). i actually like hamsters (the animal,not the person). kind of tired.

brother fell sick today. probably the first time i visited the clinic and i'm not the sick person. haha. usually i fall sick. my bro thinks i should work out more.

i finally realize that every time i change my msn nick, that someone tries to start a conversation using my nick, and typically trying to one-up what i state in my nick. if you want to talk, i get it, just talk.just don't impose your ideas on me and don't try to prove that you're my superior.

the only thing i really regret in acs is that i've thrust myself into an environment where everyone is leagues smarter than me. it becomes demoralizing to know your best will never be noticed, outsiders expect ridiculous things of me because of a stereotype. otherwise, i've had a decent life: made some good friends, cut a few bad habits; pissed off a few jerks (they were asking for it).

just because i don't play WoW or DoTA, don't like expensive stuff, have a excellent mind at random trivia, tend to jump into other people conversations, doesn't mean i have no life or i'm a disease to be avoided. "i don't like" doesn't equate to "i never tried and hate for no reason", i do experiment with games (especially sine i did work in the school's LAN shop) and i do see the adverse result on gamers (i have 4 years of viewing experience).

come to think of it, the most fun times in school were when:
1) with my friends
2) sports (but not swimming, developed a small sense of aquaphobia, due to hives-which also cultivated a small sense of heliophobia though that can be medically justified)(aqua=refers to water; helio=refers to sun, in this case heliophobia is the fear of sunlight)
3) when i'm not playing in the LAN shop (which was sparse in the first two years, but the time increased in later 2 years)

you see, when i'm not taking a gaming-break, i'm either doing work, or sarcastically joking the annoying gamers while i do repairs or duty. (they were asking for it too). and it becomes a really fun past-time to come up with random stuff to make dull work interesting. i actually miss those times (not the annoying gamers, but just doing things to make the job interesting). to paraphrase the experience, its like a IT House...with less knowledge,experience,but more juniors.

and of course, as my status as the bottom of the information chain, i have finally received info of the massive breakups in school. not that it really bothered me in the first place. 1 tenth of the level population is female, 8 tenth of the level population guys get attached or are already attached. i form part of the 1 tenth who couldn't give two dimes about it. i know i make a generalization, but i are SERIOUSLY tired of this emphasis on relationships. it bugs me to the extent i have nightmares about it. i definitely want my lunch money fund, and my gaming fund, and my comic book fund...the list of funds goes on until i run out of simple pleasures to list (list includes breakfast, dinner, RAM card, book, snacks. wait i think that's it)

at least when i bring this up with my family, they honestly tell me what they think, which is comforting.

i once talked to someone about this, and he said you should write down good things about yourself. well, i don't trust this advice, and as counter-productive as it sounds, i will list down reason why i cannot bother to enter into a relationship:
1) I have a bad memory. contrary to my great recall ability, i have horrible memory. i have problems remembering details like lets say birthday dates? (i even forgot my own for a year)
2) I don't talk a lot. i realize that i do not know a lot of topics to talk about, nor am i good at reading body language or subtle hints.
3) am a horrible gift buyer. no question about it.
4) (if i think of another reason, i'll remember to bring it up another time)

i believe in counter-intuitive ideas. not to mention bringing up these points help clear my mind.
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