origin

come on. admit it. you also wonder about your origin. why you were born, why it was when,what happens if you weren't born.

i had dinner with my parents and just asked them a few questions about myself. honestly, a lot of times i ponder on many of the important questions around origin. what if i were my brother and he was me? what if i wasn't born? what if i was born earlier?

i'll never be in youth now, i'll live through another age of youth.
my parents wouldn't work so hard now.
i can't answer the third question.

you might find it funny, but these questions really cause me to think. i spend almost 6 of 7 days worrying about others, so i guess i don't really realize anything about myself. and i always compare now to my brother's time, cos honestly, i wanted to be like him.

don't you always wonder all the "what if"s in your life over you birth...already just for my primary school life i have uncountable number of "what if"s...for all i know i could already be attached in a alternate reality (which does scare me now thinking about it)

i've lost all understanding of self at most points of my life....if i reflect about my life, my primary self was arrogant, proud and naive; my secondary life is riddled with change; and now, i still have almost no idea who i am (apart that i still are naive). so lets just let this lie here. i'll spend my life worrying about someone else, apparently this works so much better for me.

points

wooohooo...i got 34 points...thats a 10 point improvement from mid-years...BWAHAHAHAHA..

brief subject run-through:

econs- 6 points (from 2)
chem -6
math- 6
bio-5
english -4
chinese- 7

(and tok is 6, but it's not included)(even at 80 for tok and you still get a 6....wt, darn hard lah...i didn't even get 80)

so now i'm going to enjoy my hols...being alone....somehow it doesn't mix...being happy and alone

the ending

EXAMS ARE OVER....and just cos i like the phrase, i'll say it again...THE EXAMS ARE OVER....cos now the results are going to come....(cue scream)

and on to that stress...i'm going to sign up for the sch's manga competition....i'm slightly crazy due to too much ultimate spiderman reading...but i like the remake of the classic clone saga (except i like the way ben reilly died...in sand)...so my story (WHICH WAS SUPPOSE TO HAVE MORE TIME TO LET ME INCLUDE A MORE PHILOSOPHICAL SIDE TO IT) is now forced to focus more on the scientific side of it.......which is the cloning.

and i know i can say this here cos the pple reading this are either a)not going to compete, b)already have an idea...(more As and less Bs, but you get the idea)

at this point, since i'm writing on the com, i'll just discuss my story. (remember, i still have to draw the storyboard for at least the FIRST encounter with a clone....)

so, in order to fulfill my intended idea of the story, i'll give the main character an added streak that he shares with his friend....both are pretty good at applied science.(it also helps that they are ideally 18 yrs old, and take physics and chem and bio)and this fact adds to his profile (which is quite not so good) and the reason why he actually kind of understands some of this...with additional help from the class's bio genius (i don't have a name, but the person is a she...just for gender equality). the main character doesn't have a detailed background. the main detail is that he's an orphan, he's adopted.

so one day, the teacher talks about genetics-cloning.. our main protagonist (he isn't really a hero, all he wants to is define himself himself) obviously isn't really paying much attention...and then a teacher enters and introduces a new student. this new guy looks (of course) exactly like the main guy. he explains he's the long lost twin brother...but main and his friend doesn't buy it.

so the main character is rather freaked out by the appearance of his clone, and discuss this with his friend over the construction of his project during a break/after school (i haven't decided which of my own ideas i wanna put here). (here is the philo part)his friend discusses the implications of him having a clone (souls and metaphysics also included) and the ultimate possibility of having multiple clones. the genius also understood the implications and approaches him to discuss. they talk a little, and then finally after setting off main's experiment, main agrees to talk to his 'long lost twin bro'.

here's where the science get extreme. 'twin bro' reveals to main and co that clones are infitted with a device that kills them if stress overloads and adrenalin excess a certain limit, a mini-device goes off completely killing them,and then a special fission reaction occurs in the body, reducing it to sand. and of course, he reveals that he doesn't believe that he is the clone but main is. so they battle it out ( i haven't figured this out) ...and at the end, with a little more push from main's friends, 'twin' dies out suddenly and then (as explained in the earlier part
) he reduces to sand. as friends go off happy, a 'sinister' person looks from a far and says 'and the experiment continues...' or something like that.

i intend to at the end of the story, improve the connection between the three main characters....as well as go in depth on main's character and why he's so intent on 'killing' off the clones. of course, it won't be my piece of work without some philosophical views covered...(courtesy of his friend) and a proper science lecture every know and then (courtesy of the genius...though less often)....and of course...the ultimate goal is: to get rid of all those crazy ideas in my head....

no i'm kidding, i really wanted to do this cos the character strikes as closely human, he isn't really spiritual or something, he's just worried about his identity. he doesn't want glory, to save humanity, he just wants to save himself...

so thats that...