Time passes fast. A new post for a new me

Just thought i should come back here and update stuff, since my tumblr is now being watched by various people, and that i should stop being depressed 80% of the time.

Been a long time, blogspot. I've been through army, got promoted, pissed of several individuals who believe themselves above the law and everyone else. struggled and floundered again in a position of leadership. at best, i'm good at tanking work to allow the rest more free time. i guess i don't really know how to use a position of power to its max.

And flash forward a couple of months after i finish my service, and now i'm studying Medicine in UNSW. i've practically lost contact of all the army pple and for that matter everyone else i know in school.

new friendships made, new discoveries, disappointment and tons of depression, more new discoveries, some shaking of beliefs, some soul searching and constant emotion searching. several failures (not academically) and constant doubt.

already 2 terms have passed and the 3rd one is coming to an end. every other day i'm haunted by previous failures, then segway to how i can't seem to connect to anyone and how i'll never meet anyone expectations. some days i win, others i struggle to establish a balance.

So, like the fresh start i made with tumblr, here i make a fresh start/end to blogspot. I will be lonely for the foreseeable future. But i will not be miserable while watching everyone find their bliss. I will be lonely, not by choice, but because God knows when it is right and when i'm ready. Tearing away the bitterness will take time, but i'm sure one day i can move on beyond all my mistakes.

This might not be the last post here, but it will be the first for a new stage in my life, and hopefully a new me.

maybe when i'm finally not lonely will i do a actual penultimate post and close this blog.