ultimate...lightbulb

5 stages of dying :
1) Denial
2) Anger
3) Bargaining
4) Depression
5) Acceptance

2 stage of understanding your status among friends:
1) Notification
2) Acceptance

sometimes, i have to wonder. why do i bother being so nice to people? last time i remembered, there are people who borrowed stuff from me since the beginning of the year. hasn't come back to me yet; given time to people, solve problems, help and teach what little i know, and yet i have to be ignored when i need help, have to be silenced. called names, laughed at. the usual negative returns.

i don't really care, these issues usually don't stick to me. but every once a while, something will stick and burn. i think others don't see me as a friend, i'm a tag-a-long. i'm back to where i started.

i'm a horrible friend. i'll bluntly tell you your flaws,make you accept them. i'll be silent through conversations. i've a bad sense of humour and cannot make you laugh.

i will run from my own problems...