doubts

there are several kinds of people: one of them is the kind where they do what they believe is right, probably is right, but is constantly haunted by self-doubt and indecision.

now, i'm think my interests are in conflict with everyone else's interest. everyone wants happiness, but the big problem is, when i'm there, boredom enters and the happy field flees. i understand that you don't have to be the most entertaining person to make lively company. However, i am becoming increasing worried that when i feel happy, often everyone else isn't, and vice versa. one kind of people are the ones who are confident of whatever they do, no matter what situation they are in. that is someone i am not, and often enough confidence is what makes the mundane not mundane.

worrying about everything is stupid, but then not worrying is also stupid. i just pray the choices i make won't hurt anyone, because i have enough self guilt to carry.

i feel happy when people are happy, but they aren't happy when i'm around...so should i factor out the problem?

this is stupid, i am stupid. there is no reason why i should make myself suffer over nothing.

and there is the other weird issue in my head: if everyone pursues special, wouldn't special become not special? would normal be special? then what is normal?

x is the negative b plus/minus root of b-squared minus four a times c, divided by 2a

i feel crappy, i feel sad but cannot cry, i feel angry but cannot vent, i feel free but have a strait jacket on, i do not understand...emotions are confusing, rationality is making no sense, empirical testing is useless, perception is universal, language is manipulated.

tired. i want to sleep and dream but fear what i might perceive. i walk a path yet cannot see.

i am not emo, i am not contemplating anything dangerous. i'm just lost.

peak on NMR indicate different chemical environment

i'm not sure i can make meaningful relationships anymore. dissociation has some side effects...lost on the mind

fear drives human to extremes, but sometimes to greater heights

curiosity was what killed the cat, which is good considering i don't own one.

pH of phenolphthalein is slightly acidic

i can't remember...have i been punishing myself?

the term renal refers to kidney

the term prince of persia no longer refers to an individual, but several.

nothing more distraught than a confused mind.