ultimate...lightbulb

5 stages of dying :
1) Denial
2) Anger
3) Bargaining
4) Depression
5) Acceptance

2 stage of understanding your status among friends:
1) Notification
2) Acceptance

sometimes, i have to wonder. why do i bother being so nice to people? last time i remembered, there are people who borrowed stuff from me since the beginning of the year. hasn't come back to me yet; given time to people, solve problems, help and teach what little i know, and yet i have to be ignored when i need help, have to be silenced. called names, laughed at. the usual negative returns.

i don't really care, these issues usually don't stick to me. but every once a while, something will stick and burn. i think others don't see me as a friend, i'm a tag-a-long. i'm back to where i started.

i'm a horrible friend. i'll bluntly tell you your flaws,make you accept them. i'll be silent through conversations. i've a bad sense of humour and cannot make you laugh.

i will run from my own problems...

the bright darkness in life

relationship: a complex reaction i will never fully understand, and probably never bother to place time to understand. dynamics are more volatile than alcohol in dry air. but the reaction can provide the most stable condition in life.

people in love are people who are lucky. people who are able to pursue such emotions are lucky.

as for such a topic, i can't really comment on it. i have more knowledge on global migration patterns than relationships (which by the way, i have no idea about migration patterns of birds other than it happens due to the four seasons and birds not being able to survive in all 4 seasons. FLY AWAY FROM THE COLD)
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how do people forget? it is weird asking this question since i am one of the most forgetful people around, but how do people forget? i cannot escape from mistakes that i make, mistakes that hurt others. the world goes on while my mind torments me on anything i might have caused, things that i might have little or no involvement in.