going to the nut house

i've really been pushed off the edge...i can't think straight, i have moments of 'evilness', all the craziness just growing up in the cracks. and now i'm falling back into a identity/personality crisis.

i just said that i'm a lousy friend...which really sadly is a really sad fact. i know i've said it before, but this time it really has meaning. and it really hurts. i highly doubt this will improve much...

in the meanwhile, i'll go find a corner. need to go hide in the shadow or something. and making sure that in the few days of solace i can find what's left of me.