darn hopes

well, results could have been worse

chem: 73 (81 with +8mod, personal best so far)
amath: 53 (worse of all,personal BAD, +5mod later)
cmath: 82 (best of all, no mod)
physics: 63 (personal best since sec3, no kidding)
bio: 56 (personal BAD/worse...)
la: 62 (doesn't seem that great, but if you look at individual papers, unseen was 18![finally], set text was 13 [bad])
chinese: 70 (WOOOOHOOOOOO, BEST SINCE PRI4, i can't remember when i got so high before)[on a side note, i wonder how i lasted so long in higher chinese,haha]
ihs: 23/40...(WAAAAAA, WRONG POINT....SO CLOSE TO A GOOD GRADE...NOOOOO)
POD: 88 (one less mark than the best in class...sigh...byebye "top for POD")(on the bright-side, 34/40 is ok for the essay, less than last year...but then i'm not really that good)

set up my hopes a bit too high, but on retrospect, these marks are still ok...i improved my physics and chem, though amath deproved (must becos i stopped practise for a period of time...)

at least i can still take higher lvl chem...though higher lvl bio and math will be difficult to get in...sigh...

guess i should just trash the earlier 29 expectations...sigh...sadsadsad

somehow...the future doesn't seem so bright...that is this blog's future...sry about the sudden change..my pervious format sudden went crazy...my tagboard went offline...so i changed it, forgot my tagboard password and userid anyway...wanted something simple...

thinking about next year:
sadness fills me to discover the pain of leaving....or staying...neither is better than the other..either has its benefits,yet both have its disadvantages.it just makes you wanna cry on what you miss/gain...its so confusing...lost in waves of uncertain emotions and unable to swim to shore of cold logical thinking...